情定愛琴海

        Although I like vacation whatever it is, it is not right time to be taken place now because.... I hope Thanksgiving should not come fast just like this. It destory my wish and expectation. Actually, I should not pay more attention to my wish and expectation because it makes me different, crazy and sad. Always, my wish and expectation hurt me. I seem not to get rid of them. It just live near myself. Probably I also should not put myself in this situation because I have already known the result how it will happen. I still have been doing it on purpose. So, my retribution? Probably the answer is... "Yes".

Over past two days

I lived in the HELC

        Yesterday, I slept at HELC. It means I lived in computer lab. When I am tired, I slept; when I am not, I did my presentation paper. Suddenly, I realized I have no much time to delay doing assignment and studying if I cannot finish more than 70% before next week because I always think we have entire week for Thanksgiving vacation. But I am wrong because Thanksgiving is not spring break. I have no idea about why I always assumed that. Maybe my brain...Anyway, this wrong assumption looks like...terrible. Absolutely, it is an accident.

        Over past few days, I have made 2 appointment with either my family or my friends, whom are current friends of West Texas A&M University and friends of Ling Tung University. Additionally, I am still working on making another appointment with my past friends of West Texas A&M University. I hope the last appointment could be come true because I do not only meet them for a long time but also it is boring to stay at home. Of course, there is another appointment that is always necessary and is executed when I go back to Taiwan, appointment made with my either college roommate or pretty close friends. Probably I may additional appointment with another group which consists of past friends of West Texas A&M University. Why do I seperate these appointment? Because all of these friends are in different counties even cities. At least right now, I have three appointment are for sure, first two appointment I mentioned and with my college roommate (also called pretty close friends). I believe that this winter vacation will drive me busy.

I am a fool

Why

        Yesterday, I went bowling with my friends at night. My five score of each game are 141, 98, 123, 143, 145, respectively, and the average of five games is 130. The most pity is at game 4. Except last three, I only miss twice and two times before and after miss with two continuity strikes. Or I strongly believe that I may at least reach 150 or 160 even 170. Just need one more strike and then I may have turkey. However, I do not understand why bowling alley loves turning off the light. I cannot aim. My score cannot exceed 150 only because it is dark indoor. Although 170 is difficult to meet, I still have huge confidence to reach it if bowling alley does not turn the light off. I recall my last bowling games is at university if I except I went bowling in the United States. If plus the only one time in the United States without counting yesterday, it has been at least four months ago.

        When I recived email from my advisor, I disappointed. It destroys my initial wish. At that moment, I confuse. Confusing which course I would like to take next semester. I suddenly feel that it is difficult to make a decision when two opportunities impact each other even my mind. At the same moment, I deeply realize that many things cannot be held at the same time. If I pick one that I can graduate in time, I may lose a chance; if I pick the other one, the subject is not one that I exactly would like to take even though the level of difficulty between both are almost the same. That is, the purpose is different between both of two courses. Of course, I also feel happy because advisor made a decision for me. But, I am not really happy, just a little bit.

Recently

Each time I went to McDonald

        Since I came to the United States, WTAMU finally did a right thing that was to install MSN messenger for all students after rebuilt operating system. Maybe there are many students intend to use it when using computers in the HELC. Before rebuilt operating system, students did not have any authorized access to use MSN messenger. Therefore, students only can use webmessenger or something else to chat with friends like eBuddy. Whatever, WT finally did a right thing for students. That is great. But I am not sure whether other students find it or not. It does not matter because I found it in an accident.

Whenever

Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday

        Recently, everything seems to go back to the origin. It moves backward, not forward. Of course, it is not about class, but I have to keep working harder on my class businesses. Going back to the origin should not happen because it is not right. It is losing control. Probably some people may think that it is not too bad because everything could restart and erase bad things or memories. Hopefully, it could go smoothly.

        When I woke up this morning, one thing surprised me cause the time has changed, one hour behind. But my cellphone did not change. How come both of laptop and cellphone indicates different time. All of them I have set it to automatically adjust time for me when meet daylight saving time. Why? The difference between laptop and cellphone is always there and it causes me confuse on which one I depend. Once the confusion made me miss the opportunity to get extra point for my course score cause I depended on the time on each one of them. Fortunately, I passed that course; otherwise, I was going to die so much. How come? Could anybody tell me what is going on?

    球季開始沒多久，我就開始懷疑象隊是不是在打假球！因為就算找個業餘的球隊來打，都不可能好幾場都單場超過五次的失誤，而且也不可能幾乎場場都被對手拿個超過10分！這實在太離譜了，這麼明顯的結果，相信檢調也一定看得出來！可是檢調似乎沒有防範的意願，反而好像只是要賺取自己的業績一般，故意拖到賽季結束後才肯著手調查，這種動作好像只是將責任全部推給球團、球員，說球團沒盡到管理責任、球員應該要潔身自愛才是！既然一開始已經發現了，為什麼不阻止？難道只是單純的派人跟監，就只是想把中華職棒連根拔起？此外，據新聞報導檢調答應在證據確鑿前是不公開的，可檢調依然只是在調查階段就公開，在法律面前，就算只是個犯罪嫌疑犯，再被定罪前，不是都是清白的嗎？由此可見，檢調其心可見，司馬昭之心啊！當然，檢調還有個疏失，次次喊防堵喊防打假球，可是罰的最重的永遠是球員！那組頭呢？台灣的司法是否永遠都會在主要人物上面做輕判、次要人物作重判呢？這樣的司法還能被誰相信？看來檢調所喊的口號，永遠只能跟政治人物一樣，只是專門欺騙老百姓而已！其實要說這次的責任，應該是檢調！

    再來就是球團跟大環境。職棒球員沒有好的環境與制度，根本不可能完善的繼續發展下去！球團的小氣，讓現在這個現實往往逼得球員不得不想辦法賺取外快－打假球！球團高達80%以上的球員薪水都不到二十萬，甚至只有十萬！的確，沒有好成績的球員當然不應該拿那麼多，但就算有好表現，球團永遠似乎只願意給那少數幾位明星球員高達20萬、甚至30萬以上的薪水，可其他球員呢？就算有好表現，一旦薪水突破十萬，加薪幅度永遠不高、或是只加個幾千元，試問有誰願意這樣！因為球員看不到球團在他們有好表現的情況下給予加薪的誠意！沒錯，象隊的確只能有小本錢經營的能力，但至少也得讓球員感受到球團對他們的好表現是不吝嗇的！所以球團也是有責任的！

        This morning, I came to computer lab to use computer. Yet, the service was down. The information desk told me engineers had already fixed this system. I was waiting for loging in. I have some questions for these engineers even for college. First of all, I do not believe that the system died just one or two hours ago. Why do they work ineffectively on fixing? Second, the question does connect to the first one. suppose the system exactly just died within one hour, how come they did not show the message that the system was down on monitor that we slide our Buffo Card to tell each user about this problem. Third, I do not understand why the computer either in library or in the computer lab always has some problems. Sometimes the internet is down. Sometimes the computer is out of order. The percentage of problems is too high to tolerate them. The problems are always taken place all the time. Damn employees and engineers. College should return our computer fee to us because we always use the fucking computer or internet. I am not afraid to let American know. Damn all American. What the country has mature high-tech is just a lie. Only work effectively on money. Stupid race and fucking race. I cannot tolarate you.

Right now

It is at 4:15 in the morning

        Right now, I am working on my IDM midterm exam. A lots of descriptions and explanations to our questions that our professor gave us in advance is to make my brain cell die cause I have to memorize all of them. Also, I have more confidence to get B on this exam if my answers are exact correct and nothing missing. The following exam is FIN that is at third chance. Hopefully, I could get B at this time, but I have no idea about how to study cause the handout the professor gave us is tricky and many of 55 questions are not from the handout. That is about where I am worrying. But at this moment, I should focus more on my IDM exam because our professor seem to dislike Chinese students. That is, all of us, Chinese students, think he has racial discrimination even though he is also an Western Asian. He never care about his student. Therefore, I would like to lower his score on the survey that it is going to be taken place two or three weeks before final even it is anonymous. Another professor, my FIN professor, is the same as my IDM professor. Whatever, I would like to tell my professors that just give B to pass this semester even though both of them always ignore students' life and death.

        Each time before I go to bed, I always scan my laptop under safe mode. While waiting for scaning, I sometimes turn TV on to watch it. However, over past two days, I saw there are some Japanese cartoon was performing. It surprises me because I never think I could see Japanese cartoon in the United States. Only one time I saw it and the cartoon is Pikachu. As regarding of the cartoon performed last night, it is Fullmetal Alchemist. But one thing is strange. The odd thing is that all of these Japanese cartoons are speaking English. I am not used to watch Japanese cartoon in English, but it is awesome.

        Yesterday, I just finished my FIN exam at second chance. Although we have third chance to take exam and I would like to take it again, I have to prepare for my IDM exam. Yet the answer is difficult to find out. Some of 20 questions are easy to find out from textbook, slide, or notes from being given by our professor. The rest of the questions are not easy to find out. However, I need to finish my note before tomorrow night because I need to spend at least two days to study. If I do not finish in time that I expected, I will be dangerous for my final score even for my GPA. Of course, I got some answers for the note today already. At least I still have a little bit good news.

        Today, I took my FIN midterm at second chance, but the score grow up only 2%. So crazy. Although we have the third chance to take this exam because I think that everybody got lower score. However, I do not have time to take one more time because I have another midterm in another class next Tuesday. It is unfair to me. But teacher insisted on it. She would not like to adjust our score. She prefer to give us one more chance. Why does every professor like ignoring students' feeling? They only care about themselves. Students always have a lot of assignments and exams within one semester and sometimes these assignments and exams come together. Therefore, I believe that many of the students in this class are going to be crazy. Right now, I am still failed. Another thing I do not understand why I meet two professors from whom each student would like to stay away. From this description, I am not a fortunate guy.

        My IDM 6310 professor, Abdullat, is a crazy, damn, and fucking guy. I do not understand what exactly you want. You hope us to give you our outline, but you define it as a proposal. Since you want us to add more detail, why don't you ask us to finish our presentation paper directly? What the hell do you want? Outline is a brief description about our whole paper what we would like to experess. However, your definition of outline is not like this format. Damn it. At this moment, I would like to kill you. If possible, I would also like to donate a barrel of oil, a match, and a cake. I strongly think you are a damn person. Each time I go to your class, I am tired. I never feel it before. Only your class. How can you be evil? You are a devil. Actually, devil does not suit you because devil is also better than you. You are nothing. Nothing...Fuck you, Abdullat. Just go to hell and then I will be happy. I even shoot off firework to celebrate. Just dying early, Abdullate. Whatever the method you pick, just die. You never think that we have a lot of assignments and exams during this term. Additionally, you never upload course material to WTClass. You never return our assignments. You always delay replying our email. You always give us an excuse to postpone meeting us about returning our assignments. Please remember to call and tell me when you die because I would like to celebrate it.

Tomorrow night

I have Economics 6305 mid-term exam

Today
Is Taiwan's birthday