情定愛琴海

        I do not understand why the treatment between some friends and I is totally different. They praise you and joke with you, and you do not feel uncomfortable. However, I do similiar things and you do not feel comfortable. In addition, I did some similiar things before, but you always utilize the same attitude to me. It means you dislike me or hate me, don't you? Yet I remember you ever told me that most of things you can directly ask me because we have an excellent relationship. But why? I still confuse that. And you probably cannot explain to me. I think you really dislike me. Maybe you just fake. Today I pretend to smile and force me to smile. I drink three cans of beer because I would like to be drunk and then I do not need to think about many things about you. But what about the result? Of course I am not drunk. I am not dare to let you know my feeling for you. It is not allowed as I said before. Would you mind teaching me how to do?