情定愛琴海

        Each time I listen my MP3, I always generate a specific feeling. I also think about why I am always alone. Like other important holiday or somewhere, such as Valentine's Day, Chinese Valentine's Day, Christmas, Fisherman Wharf, etc, both of these factors casue me to dislike it. When I see somebody could stay with their mate in these holidays or places, I have no idea about my terrible feeling. I still think if I am right or I am wrong because it seems to make me stay alone forever. Probably I have to acknowledge that it is my life, and it is real life. I should stop praying for myself. If there is a god, I wonder the reason. Yet I actually do not believe that. Why? Ask again, always. I also have no idea about this complex question. Most of these kinds of things always surround me. Just like O₂ and H₂O. These two materials surround human every day, every year, even until we die in the future. The only different thing is that the two materials human needs it until persons go to Hell or Heaven. In other words, it is necessary for mankind. However, the thing influences is not necessary. Never mind. Alone life has its advantage, and I am ready to do it forever until I die. As my status of MSN messenger indicates, everything is not big deal and follow my feeling to do the things which I think it is right or necessary. I have to live without these damn things that disturbing me and intervening my life. I have to use more positive attitude to create many wonderful things, which I think it is meaningful or hopeful, in my whole life.