情定愛琴海

        When I recived email from my advisor, I disappointed. It destroys my initial wish. At that moment, I confuse. Confusing which course I would like to take next semester. I suddenly feel that it is difficult to make a decision when two opportunities impact each other even my mind. At the same moment, I deeply realize that many things cannot be held at the same time. If I pick one that I can graduate in time, I may lose a chance; if I pick the other one, the subject is not one that I exactly would like to take even though the level of difficulty between both are almost the same. That is, the purpose is different between both of two courses. Of course, I also feel happy because advisor made a decision for me. But, I am not really happy, just a little bit.

Recently

Each time I went to McDonald

And

        Since I came to the United States, WTAMU finally did a right thing that was to install MSN messenger for all students after rebuilt operating system. Maybe there are many students intend to use it when using computers in the HELC. Before rebuilt operating system, students did not have any authorized access to use MSN messenger. Therefore, students only can use webmessenger or something else to chat with friends like eBuddy. Whatever, WT finally did a right thing for students. That is great. But I am not sure whether other students find it or not. It does not matter because I found it in an accident.

Whenever

Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday

Are my expected day

        Recently, everything seems to go back to the origin. It moves backward, not forward. Of course, it is not about class, but I have to keep working harder on my class businesses. Going back to the origin should not happen because it is not right. It is losing control. Probably some people may think that it is not too bad because everything could restart and erase bad things or memories. Hopefully, it could go smoothly.

        When I woke up this morning, one thing surprised me cause the time has changed, one hour behind. But my cellphone did not change. How come both of laptop and cellphone indicates different time. All of them I have set it to automatically adjust time for me when meet daylight saving time. Why? The difference between laptop and cellphone is always there and it causes me confuse on which one I depend. Once the confusion made me miss the opportunity to get extra point for my course score cause I depended on the time on each one of them. Fortunately, I passed that course; otherwise, I was going to die so much. How come? Could anybody tell me what is going on?

    球季開始沒多久，我就開始懷疑象隊是不是在打假球！因為就算找個業餘的球隊來打，都不可能好幾場都單場超過五次的失誤，而且也不可能幾乎場場都被對手拿個超過10分！這實在太離譜了，這麼明顯的結果，相信檢調也一定看得出來！可是檢調似乎沒有防範的意願，反而好像只是要賺取自己的業績一般，故意拖到賽季結束後才肯著手調查，這種動作好像只是將責任全部推給球團、球員，說球團沒盡到管理責任、球員應該要潔身自愛才是！既然一開始已經發現了，為什麼不阻止？難道只是單純的派人跟監，就只是想把中華職棒連根拔起？此外，據新聞報導檢調答應在證據確鑿前是不公開的，可檢調依然只是在調查階段就公開，在法律面前，就算只是個犯罪嫌疑犯，再被定罪前，不是都是清白的嗎？由此可見，檢調其心可見，司馬昭之心啊！當然，檢調還有個疏失，次次喊防堵喊防打假球，可是罰的最重的永遠是球員！那組頭呢？台灣的司法是否永遠都會在主要人物上面做輕判、次要人物作重判呢？這樣的司法還能被誰相信？看來檢調所喊的口號，永遠只能跟政治人物一樣，只是專門欺騙老百姓而已！其實要說這次的責任，應該是檢調！

    再來就是球團跟大環境。職棒球員沒有好的環境與制度，根本不可能完善的繼續發展下去！球團的小氣，讓現在這個現實往往逼得球員不得不想辦法賺取外快－打假球！球團高達80%以上的球員薪水都不到二十萬，甚至只有十萬！的確，沒有好成績的球員當然不應該拿那麼多，但就算有好表現，球團永遠似乎只願意給那少數幾位明星球員高達20萬、甚至30萬以上的薪水，可其他球員呢？就算有好表現，一旦薪水突破十萬，加薪幅度永遠不高、或是只加個幾千元，試問有誰願意這樣！因為球員看不到球團在他們有好表現的情況下給予加薪的誠意！沒錯，象隊的確只能有小本錢經營的能力，但至少也得讓球員感受到球團對他們的好表現是不吝嗇的！所以球團也是有責任的！

    最後則是球員！球員明知道打假球是很不對的，但還是喜歡鋌而走險！拿小曹看，明知道跟組頭見面已經很不對勁了，何以還要有第二次、第三次、甚至第四次？令人搞不懂，也許小曹只是衝著自己好友的面而已，即使小曹並沒打假球！但又如報紙所說，每每見完組頭後，都碰巧嚐到敗績！刑事專業中，一個碰巧是巧合，兩個碰巧依然算是巧合，但過多的巧合組在一起，就不再是巧合！薪水不夠，可以向球團要求，只要有好的表現。不然邪惡點，甚至可能背上不忠不義的辱罵都沒關係，已出走向球團要脅，讓他們展現出拿出加薪的誠意，當然不要求一次加個3、5萬，但至少要誠意，這樣球員才會了解到球團是有誠意加薪，只是礙於象隊是個小本經營的球隊，沒法一次加的太多或是給的太多！可這樣至少球員知道，在往後的賽季，只要有好表現，球團都會不吝給予好的回報！

        This morning, I came to computer lab to use computer. Yet, the service was down. The information desk told me engineers had already fixed this system. I was waiting for loging in. I have some questions for these engineers even for college. First of all, I do not believe that the system died just one or two hours ago. Why do they work ineffectively on fixing? Second, the question does connect to the first one. suppose the system exactly just died within one hour, how come they did not show the message that the system was down on monitor that we slide our Buffo Card to tell each user about this problem. Third, I do not understand why the computer either in library or in the computer lab always has some problems. Sometimes the internet is down. Sometimes the computer is out of order. The percentage of problems is too high to tolerate them. The problems are always taken place all the time. Damn employees and engineers. College should return our computer fee to us because we always use the fucking computer or internet. I am not afraid to let American know. Damn all American. What the country has mature high-tech is just a lie. Only work effectively on money. Stupid race and fucking race. I cannot tolarate you.

Right now

It is at 4:15 in the morning

It is the same as before

        Right now, I am working on my IDM midterm exam. A lots of descriptions and explanations to our questions that our professor gave us in advance is to make my brain cell die cause I have to memorize all of them. Also, I have more confidence to get B on this exam if my answers are exact correct and nothing missing. The following exam is FIN that is at third chance. Hopefully, I could get B at this time, but I have no idea about how to study cause the handout the professor gave us is tricky and many of 55 questions are not from the handout. That is about where I am worrying. But at this moment, I should focus more on my IDM exam because our professor seem to dislike Chinese students. That is, all of us, Chinese students, think he has racial discrimination even though he is also an Western Asian. He never care about his student. Therefore, I would like to lower his score on the survey that it is going to be taken place two or three weeks before final even it is anonymous. Another professor, my FIN professor, is the same as my IDM professor. Whatever, I would like to tell my professors that just give B to pass this semester even though both of them always ignore students' life and death.

        Each time before I go to bed, I always scan my laptop under safe mode. While waiting for scaning, I sometimes turn TV on to watch it. However, over past two days, I saw there are some Japanese cartoon was performing. It surprises me because I never think I could see Japanese cartoon in the United States. Only one time I saw it and the cartoon is Pikachu. As regarding of the cartoon performed last night, it is Fullmetal Alchemist. But one thing is strange. The odd thing is that all of these Japanese cartoons are speaking English. I am not used to watch Japanese cartoon in English, but it is awesome.

        Yesterday, I just finished my FIN exam at second chance. Although we have third chance to take exam and I would like to take it again, I have to prepare for my IDM exam. Yet the answer is difficult to find out. Some of 20 questions are easy to find out from textbook, slide, or notes from being given by our professor. The rest of the questions are not easy to find out. However, I need to finish my note before tomorrow night because I need to spend at least two days to study. If I do not finish in time that I expected, I will be dangerous for my final score even for my GPA. Of course, I got some answers for the note today already. At least I still have a little bit good news.

        Today, I took my FIN midterm at second chance, but the score grow up only 2%. So crazy. Although we have the third chance to take this exam because I think that everybody got lower score. However, I do not have time to take one more time because I have another midterm in another class next Tuesday. It is unfair to me. But teacher insisted on it. She would not like to adjust our score. She prefer to give us one more chance. Why does every professor like ignoring students' feeling? They only care about themselves. Students always have a lot of assignments and exams within one semester and sometimes these assignments and exams come together. Therefore, I believe that many of the students in this class are going to be crazy. Right now, I am still failed. Another thing I do not understand why I meet two professors from whom each student would like to stay away. From this description, I am not a fortunate guy.

        My IDM 6310 professor, Abdullat, is a crazy, damn, and fucking guy. I do not understand what exactly you want. You hope us to give you our outline, but you define it as a proposal. Since you want us to add more detail, why don't you ask us to finish our presentation paper directly? What the hell do you want? Outline is a brief description about our whole paper what we would like to experess. However, your definition of outline is not like this format. Damn it. At this moment, I would like to kill you. If possible, I would also like to donate a barrel of oil, a match, and a cake. I strongly think you are a damn person. Each time I go to your class, I am tired. I never feel it before. Only your class. How can you be evil? You are a devil. Actually, devil does not suit you because devil is also better than you. You are nothing. Nothing...Fuck you, Abdullat. Just go to hell and then I will be happy. I even shoot off firework to celebrate. Just dying early, Abdullate. Whatever the method you pick, just die. You never think that we have a lot of assignments and exams during this term. Additionally, you never upload course material to WTClass. You never return our assignments. You always delay replying our email. You always give us an excuse to postpone meeting us about returning our assignments. Please remember to call and tell me when you die because I would like to celebrate it.

Tomorrow night

I have Economics 6305 mid-term exam

Oct. 17

Today
Is Taiwan's birthday
Country established for 98 years

Sorry Sorry, Korean song sang by Super Junior. I would like to learn how to dance because it is one of the Korean music I love it most. Originally, many of new students would perform this dance in Moon Festival yesterday night. When I heard this news, I was happy and I decided to go to BSM to see the different version, WT version. Yet they did not perform it. I dun know why.

        Tonight, we held a party to celebrate Moon Festival even though this holiday had already been over for one week. However, the activities were not good during the party. Also, the host of the party always spoke Chinese. They seemed to forget that there were some American at BSM to celebrate Chinese holiday together. American could not underdstand what it means and why we always held party during important holiday. After that, they had BBQ outside BSM at parking lot, and they tended to play a game. Yet they still forgot American. They still spoke Chinese. Additionally, they told everybody they could go outside to have BBQ, but BBQ were not ready. American seemed to be a foolish. They just sat on seat and was waiting for BBQ. They were bored. So, we could image the result. They left. All activities were dancing and singing. That is, only two performances performed in the party. Therefore, I strongly believed that the party was just spent one hour. It was horrible. So, one thing I could do at this moment is to forget it. So crazy.

        I just came back to home from Wendy's. I found that the frosty served with variety, including Oreo's and M&M's. Diversification makes their consumers have more opportunities to order products they would like. It surprises me because I never think the forsty could have different flavors with M&M's even Oreo's. On the surface, it is kind of the flavor of chocolate. Yet there still have some differentiation between normal chocolate and M&M's. Unfortunately, I dun like frosty so much. Otherewise, I would order this one to try the new products.

    變形金剛系列，更凸顯出美國的帝國主義，當然其中也不難看出何以其他種族以及其他國家的反美情緒，是如此的高漲！不論是哪個災難片、還是戰爭片，美國永遠都是將其他國家的災害發揮到極致，然而美國本土確沒什麼大礙。就拿第二集來說，一開始中國上海面目全非、進而到埃及的轟炸，都使得當地的景色跟美國比起來都黯然失色；再不然就算有災難，受害程度永遠比其他國家低，看看明天過後就知道，日本因氣候變遷，不單下起冰雹，冰雹還砸死人，而美國呢？只是簡簡單單的因氣溫驟降而降起大雪罷了！

　　此外，美國在一系列的變形金剛中，拼命的向全世界展示全球軍事打擊的能力，隨處都可見到航空母艦戰鬥群，以及各個盟邦毫無異議的幫忙美軍在各處的戰鬥，其中包含了北大西洋公約組織！然後傷亡人數，遠遠超過美軍的傷亡人數！這種自以為是的帝國主義，也難怪南韓、回教世界、甚至其他被美國欺壓的國家的老百姓，都對美國極度不削！如果這麼有種，就連北韓一起打，反正美國從不顧聯合國安理會的反對，就像出兵伊拉克一樣！

　　美國的這些種種行為，彷彿有如中國的第一位皇帝－秦始皇！即便有功於國家社稷、外交領域，但瑜不掩瑕，無故發動戰爭，導致他國人民死傷無數，並將自己的無理行為給合理化！兩者唯一的不同，一個是軍主專制社會；另一個是民主社會！君主專制社會被百姓、軍隊推翻政府的情形，並不會在美國上演！這就是兩者唯一的相異處！

        Brother Elephant finally won the champion of the second half of season and have champion competition with Lion. I strongly hope elephant could be able to win the champion because I have supported it since 20th century. It is my favorite team in CPBL. Although Atlanta Brave did not enter playoff, elephant at least could compete with Lion. However, next season, I hope both of the Atlanta Brave and Brother Elephant could go to playoff together. If possible, I think I may be happier than this moment. Whatever, at least elephant goes to playoff. I am also so happy. Come on, Brother Elephant.

        Start counting down, 67 days left. 67 days later, I will be in Taiwan. I hope it comes quickly, but I need to face some damn challenge from graduate school before going home. Keep going. Go go go....Hang on then everything is yours.