情定愛琴海

        I just started my career for one week. However, I have already thought about transferring to another field. This thought seems horrible and terrible. Originally, I would not like to work at office, but right now, situation changed. It is okey. I will do it first because salesperson can learn a lot of things from either different places or different persons. On the other hand, my second dream job is to work at internet companies. I have no idea why I am interested in this field. Just love it. I discovered this interest when I was an undergraduate in the college. At this moment, I think I won't work for my current company longer than one or two year if everything may go smoothly. Perhaps, many people think it is not good to me with this thought too often. Of course, I think it is not good to me, either. Whatever, everything may depend on my individual achievement
within probation.

Everything is wrong

As I said in MSN status

Something should not happen

Next Monday

I am going to start my career

At Cathay United Bank as salesperson

        Why is the autobiography more difficult to write than papers I did for my MBA program in WT? Comparing papers to autobiography will apparently indicate the degree of difficulty. Although the papers for MBA programs are the difficulty in writing, it is still easier than autobiography because we sometimes can just "bullshit" on papers from our references. Unlike this, autobiography has to be offered the truth. How come the truth is such difficult to write down? Probably many people will say that I just write down something that happened. Yet, it is not to exactly do the way like this. Truth which cannot always be told is what exactly happened before present tense; however, bullshit is what can exactly be developed by our own thoughts. Say easily but hard to do will be the best description to express this condition.

        Yesterday, I just came back to Taiwan from the United States in the morning. After getting home, I looked for 1111 and 104 websites, I found there are few jobs I can do. I tend to start with a salesperson for my career because of this reason. By being a salesperson, I may learn more things than I have had from here. Enhancing interpersonal relationship is my top priority I am in need when this situation challenges me. Many people intend to have "close to home, incredible wages, and less assignments". However, it is not my first requirement. As long as being far from home even though I could still live at home, it is good to me. As regard wage, I do not need too much. Sufficiency on all expense is more important to stand at first position on my list. The other is with regard to assignment. I also do not care more about how many assignments I have as long as I have much free time to take a rest without sacrificing working time. Whatever, from past to present, I always hope that everything can go smoothly. It means I can find jobs and have stable jobs with no much obstacle.

        Finally, I am done with my strategic final exam. But I still worry about it. I am not sure how much score I can get. I hope I can graduate in time. Postponing may force me crazy. How come I always forget the answer on each test? I study at least twice. I tried to find key point at first time on studying, and then studied for second and third times. Yet I forgot. Right now, I just hope professor can give me C. For each question on exams, I have impression on each of them, but I just forgot the answer. I am supposed to forget past, but I cannot. Sigh...

        One month later, I may start my career. Is situation that graduation is unemployment going to happen to me? I have no idea about. Graduation is another milestone in life. Everyone has to face it. It is worth being happy, but cannot be too happy. Stress and pressure will follow. According to study, more than 90% graduates most worry about their future because they do not have enough English skill and expertise to handle the job in each field. Unemployment can be caused from different factors. This is one of major reason that causes people as an unemployment. Although many people many say that everything is to learn from scratch when graduates graduate from college and start working in an organization, it is still difficult. Relearning is not a problem from scratch, but there are still potential problems.

Next week is spring break

That is

It is time to study

        Midterm has already finished. What does it mean? I think it means I have to come to library to study. In order to handle my rest of exams, this is the only way to do for exams. At home, I cannot study. Too much things to lure me to be unable to pay attention to my study. I hope I can graduate smoothly. After that, I, on the other hand, have to worry about my career. At present day, the rate of unemployment still stand at high percentage in Taiwan. Graduation is unemployment. Of course, this moment is not the right time to think about this. If something goes wrong, everything will be nothing.

        I have been taking BUSI class which counts 1 credit hour this semester. The professor of this course always wants us to ask him/her question if we have any problem. However, each time I emailed him/her my questions, he or she either shows his/her impatience on my problems or ignores my email on purpose. The result is that I still confuse about comments. That is, my assignment has stopped moving forward few weeks ago. On the other hand, the deadline of the proposal of this assignment is next Wednesday. Until today, I do not receive the response from my professor. I do not understand at all of what my professor thinks. He or she wants us to ask, but there is no any response from him/her. I emailed him/her many times. I have questioned by email because this course is online class. So...what should I do next step? Other classmates have the same situation as me. Both of us do not start doing our assignment. Each time when I was seeing the due date when is getting closer, I am nervous. That is why I said this semester is more difficult to pass all courses than last semester. Of course, I have to acknowledge that last two terms are the most difficut in my life of graduate school.

        I do not understand if my English is not good or not. Otherwise, why do I not understand what my professor said and what he wants us to do? I can understand each word, but I cannot understand the meaning. It only counts one credit, but it is difficult. Is it tricky? I have no idea. I just know I cannot understand. However, each time I email him and ask him about the portfolio, the feeling he gave me is impantient. That is, he might always think why I do not read the syllebus and his comments first. I actually did it. I still not understand what exactly he wants us to do. I confuse always. Right now, I still stay at initial position. In other words, I do not move forward on my portfolio. Of course, I have to acknowledge my English skill has been falling since attended graduate school. I always thought my English skill in level 2 is the best period and then stay at the same level in level 3. After that, no comment. So, what could I do? What should I do? I asked, but do not understand. I emailed, but still confuse. My thought cannot follow professor's idea.

Tomorrow

And Friday

We may snow

        這次台灣盟邦海地發生規模7的大地震，想到假使如果同樣事件發生在台北市，那不知道會是什麼樣的情形？也許災情更慘重吧！所以最好不要發生這種事情！可這次的地震，又在一次的讓全球各個國家團結再一起，不論種族，不論膚色，不論政治，大家心中只有一個目的：協助海地救災，進行重建！不知道為什麼世界上的所有人都不知道好好珍惜，平時安穩的時候總是互相攻伐，互相制裁，偏要等到大災難降臨時，才能發揮彼此的愛心呢？這是一個很奇怪，也無法解釋的世界！

　　　當然，就這次的事件我們又可以看出台灣的救災政策！這次台灣的救災小組，幾乎與民間機構同時投入災區幫忙！這本是件可喜的事情，因為台灣人就是這麼有愛心，而這種愛心往往不落人後！然而，回過頭看台灣較早的八八水災，政府的救災小組卻遲了民間機構將近一星期！這樣也就算了，馬政府竟然還拒絕國際的救援！這個問題來了，到底台灣人民在馬政府心中，是否很不如邦交國的人民？為什麼馬政府對於國內災情的救援可以如此的緩慢，相反的對於邦交國的災情卻可以在事情發生後一星期內甚至幾天內就派人就定位準備協助救災！這實在是太矛盾了！

        所謂證據，就是可以確實的指出一個人的行為在過去的時間，確實發生過！然而，證據卻又可以分為表面證據跟實際證據！表面證據，在法庭上是不被採用的，只能當作參考的依據。當有了實際證據後，表面證據才會被採行！即便表面證據已經有了高達90%以上可以證明某人的確做過哪些事，犯過哪些罪！但依然還有那麼的10%的缺洞！因為表面證據，只是藉由現場的擺設，景象所推敲出來的證據而已！在法庭上（不知台灣是否也有，但我想應該有），疑點利益基於被告，就是這樣！若是沒有100%證據顯示一個人有罪，那麼基於這個原理，被告依然會被判決無罪！不過通常比較有理性，比較有良知的檢警人員，都會壓住這個案子繼續調查，直到找其證據後再提告！否則就算提告，被告也是享有疑點利益基於被告的權利，被當庭釋放！這樣只是在浪費納稅人的錢而已！至於實際證據，則是可以確確實實的證明某人的過往行為！就算只有80%或是以上，法官也是可以參照檢警提供的表面證據，去判決一個人是否有罪！

Tonight

I will fly to Taiwan

Waiting for a year

Today

Just like this

Leave

        Although I like vacation whatever it is, it is not right time to be taken place now because.... I hope Thanksgiving should not come fast just like this. It destory my wish and expectation. Actually, I should not pay more attention to my wish and expectation because it makes me different, crazy and sad. Always, my wish and expectation hurt me. I seem not to get rid of them. It just live near myself. Probably I also should not put myself in this situation because I have already known the result how it will happen. I still have been doing it on purpose. So, my retribution? Probably the answer is... "Yes".

Over past two days

I lived in the HELC

Originally

        Yesterday, I slept at HELC. It means I lived in computer lab. When I am tired, I slept; when I am not, I did my presentation paper. Suddenly, I realized I have no much time to delay doing assignment and studying if I cannot finish more than 70% before next week because I always think we have entire week for Thanksgiving vacation. But I am wrong because Thanksgiving is not spring break. I have no idea about why I always assumed that. Maybe my brain...Anyway, this wrong assumption looks like...terrible. Absolutely, it is an accident.

        Over past few days, I have made 2 appointment with either my family or my friends, whom are current friends of West Texas A&M University and friends of Ling Tung University. Additionally, I am still working on making another appointment with my past friends of West Texas A&M University. I hope the last appointment could be come true because I do not only meet them for a long time but also it is boring to stay at home. Of course, there is another appointment that is always necessary and is executed when I go back to Taiwan, appointment made with my either college roommate or pretty close friends. Probably I may additional appointment with another group which consists of past friends of West Texas A&M University. Why do I seperate these appointment? Because all of these friends are in different counties even cities. At least right now, I have three appointment are for sure, first two appointment I mentioned and with my college roommate (also called pretty close friends). I believe that this winter vacation will drive me busy.

I am a fool

Why

Because I am always used to do something

        Yesterday, I went bowling with my friends at night. My five score of each game are 141, 98, 123, 143, 145, respectively, and the average of five games is 130. The most pity is at game 4. Except last three, I only miss twice and two times before and after miss with two continuity strikes. Or I strongly believe that I may at least reach 150 or 160 even 170. Just need one more strike and then I may have turkey. However, I do not understand why bowling alley loves turning off the light. I cannot aim. My score cannot exceed 150 only because it is dark indoor. Although 170 is difficult to meet, I still have huge confidence to reach it if bowling alley does not turn the light off. I recall my last bowling games is at university if I except I went bowling in the United States. If plus the only one time in the United States without counting yesterday, it has been at least four months ago.